Alone part 1

Yeah it is time to write a little about being alone in this world. I have feelings about this daily just have no real way to relieve it. Not that i have thought against using like Match.com or one of the others to find a potential life partner or some one for right now. It just seems that I have to watch as those about me wander on together as I walk a lonely path going no where real fast.

I did an act of kindness to a guy and his girlfriend. they seemed really hhappy and just watch from my lonely post on the couch. Yeah you heard me lonely post on a couch with not a person near to me that was with me. Yeah I know this is one of those BooHoos times, both I have to scream outloud. I AM TIRED OF THIS!!!!

I know that I have no one at times that reads this blog and somoetimes I am happy that I don't have peeps looking at it. This gives me a chance to voice it out in silence and be to live with nyself abit better. I am not even sure that I could through having sex with a person. I am not sure that I could even live befgore,during and after the act. The doctor has told me that a sudden drop in blood pressure could kill me. That is cause of the diabetes and high blood pressure. So do I want to chance it or just wait by the side lines watching as life passes me by.
I just want to know when do I have a chance to find out? When is it my turn and can I step up to the plate as they say and do it?

So do I have left in my life?

More on this later as I get the feel to write about it.
Nite y'all and I wish you sweet dreams, cause that is all I have any more just the dreams. That is all I have left. I lost my wife and a life. Oh and Happy Holidays if I do not write again soon.