Center Can Not Hold

This is a book I am reading at the Moment. It has real made me look into the mirror and see the monster that is looking back. The that is me in the mirror type of thought. Truth is that it me and I have to deal with it. I matter be in a horror film. My days are becoming hell at times and i HAVE TO DEAL WITH IT. Screw the caps lock. Well my weekly sessions are doing some help but I still think the major things are getting lost and I have no idea where they are. Need to dig deeper. I still have yet to find what it is. Years of being bully, lack of sex (that involves a girlfriend), human contact (including a hug every now and then), conversation (involves coffee then I go off and ramble on, confusing peeps). I have no idea what it is?
I am going to ponder this abit more. I have to achieve baby step goals and do them. Hell I have no idea what I am going to do.

TTFN