Part 3

well I once again went to the club and again a no show. I guess i SHOULD JUST LET THIS GO AND FORGET ABOUT THIS FRIEND. i HAVE GIVEN HER ALL THE CHANCES i SHOULD HAVE GIVEN ANYONE. Dang caps lock.

My life should be a happy one with the few friends I have and please know that I am retaful for them. They mean the life to me and I need them in so many ways. Just that four walls is just that four walls nothing more and nothing less. I have to have human contact, I need that hug.
What do I do? Do I just walk away and stand in a huge crowd feeling that I am one among too many?

I need this contact. I need the feeling that I have achieve something more then being a pet to John (step-father). Everything I do seems to include him I can never seem to get away from it. My room is my only haven from him so far but that will change when I have to move back into the house. Yeah that is a plan my Mom has in store for me. Then he will have there too. I just put on a happy face and just move on.

Well time for me to sleep and get some sort of rest.